just for kicks !

notice the two pictures, they are taken from behind! hehehe? i think im getting way above even my own limits. okaythanksbai ! good night.

oh btw, these are heaven :]

norwegian republic- 8 become 1

no one takes a bow

baby ethan <3 joy.
i chopped my hair off again, the pic is the before :]
wonders on a tuesday night, i am currently watching the amazing race asia, with thoughts squandering my mind. sometimes we tend to unleashed words that we dont mean to say, which i often regret almost immediately. im sorry for what i said, and i mean it, i really do. why do we humans tend to say things that we do not mean without thinking even for a split second, then the human conscience starts kicking in, the feeling of guilt. and thus whats the point of apologizing over and over again, till the word sorry seeems to be overused. we just never seem to learn from out mistakes and we've become very accustomed to just saying sorry to make things seem better, thus taking advantage of the 5 letter word, me included :[



its a rather quiet night i'd say, and actually i am on a one week break from uni. it's such a waste that the raya holidays falls simultaneously during my uni week or else, ill be enjoying more much needed rest. boo. on a random note, does the inflationary pressure in our country becoming so out of control? last time, a green note, meaning the 50 ringgit note used to last for a while but now, one ive broken the 50, it finishes ever so quickly, sometimes in a mere hours ! it's scary and the fact is im not self sufficient, i depend on others for my survival :/



the black one, on the other hand seems to still be very weak. her legs are not doing her really well. and i forgot to feed her the night medicine. it would seem very rude of me to wake her up from her sleep to feed them to her. ill make it up to you tomorrow :] i am not happy the way things are going for her, i would like to live in my own world and pretend that everything its ok, when its not and i need to face reality. you used to frisk yourself up the stairs in a mere seconds but now you cant even make it pass the third stairs. it saddens me when mother told me she saw you sleeping last night on the half way mark of the staircase, the flat platform. this means that you tried climbing up but you couldnt. i know ive never been the best to you at times, sometimes shouting profanities at you for barking so loud till i get aggitated and sometimes getting fed up at you for being so greedy trying to steal our food. id rather see you do these than for me to resort to those actions which would see you go to the place with angels. i am selfish, make me proud and you stay strong and fight those bitch cells ! i is have faith, and you should to :)



ethan, the new born nephew. bundles of joy for the family. screams as if there is no tomorrow, enough said.



furthermore, could this be karma to me? i have not been the best person that ive been. ive sinned and iver definitely hurt myself and others in more way than one, and some even not knowing.



its 1 am now. meaning that it is already raya :] im talking as if i celebrate raya ! hehe. :] cant help but wonder how are you at times like this =) hoping all you malays have a great one !



im so off now. csi ny is my next cure to boredom. so long. lovepeaceandjoy :] do drop becky a prayer if you can, hearts <3



.loves.

-

i see you lying beside my study table looking weak and tired. it has been the same routine for you this past 5 years or so. but now i wonder, if u'll be here with me a week from now. i prayed so hard that you will be because i need and want you so badly. i can never imagine you leaving me, im selfish that way and i love you. please beat the cancer cells, im begging you. im crushed beyond words.



and, where were you when i needed you most. gah

thursdaynight/fridaymorning

yucky pic, but i <3>.
lucky im in love with my best friend

lucky to have been where i have been

lucky to be coming home again.

lucky we're in love in everyway, lucky to have stayed the way that we have stayed.



do i/you/we/they have it all? i envy those who walk with pride daily knowing that they have it all, depending on your definition on whats 'it all'. family love may not be all that important to you if ur satisfied with everything u have may it be a boyfriend or luxury goods, but to the poor, family love maybe all they all and yet contented.



on a brighter note, the sister is scheduled to give birth this sunday. induced of course. i will of course try to be there to welcome my new nephew, yes its a boy ! and of course to welcome more task/chores/cooking chinese herbs/making chinese bathes/changing diapers?? err, guess ill leave it to matilda. THE MAID I WISH COULD SPEAK LOUDER AND STOP SMILING. i would be dethroned the moment he comes into this world, a moment of joy for the family. im no longer the baby of the family !



oh and brad, happy belated birthday. may u have a nice PEEaceful, blissful and wonderful birthday <3


jason mraz- lucky

you :[

today a phone call woke me up at 7.22 pm.
i took a nap upon returning from ou then watching a few episodes of satc*.
it then dawned on me that the sense of loneliness killed me.
the room was dark and quiet. and it only stood becky and i.
it hits me so randomly.
i thought of you when i least expected it.
gah, i hate you.

today feels more jinxed than any other day.


firstly, i received news from my sister that her father in law suffered a heart attack. poor him. i really hope he gets well soon. with the grandson on the way, im sure he wants to be well and healthy to receive the birth. then on the way to uni at the sunway square getting our assignment bind, yen's car suffers a punctured tyre. poor us, assignment were passed up pass the deadline of 4 pm. but it's alright, as everything today seems saturate it all. and lastly during dinner, i heard from my brother that his gf's grandpa has passed on :( though i never met him, its sad to hear such a news. my condolences to jen and her family.





on a lighter note.


was with fei at starbucks, uptown to do some assignment work. note the word 'some'. we then proceeded, or rather i proceeded to do something ingenius with a cardboard when fei was on the phone. hence the pictures. after some light conversation and 8 sticks later i went home to sex and the city.

apparently i heart sarah too :)

btw, i cant help but complain about the sista's maid's cooking. one word. TERRIBLE TO THE CORE. its too salty. i mean i like salty, but hers is salt overload. bad bad. and right now, i conclude that my life revolves around becky and matilda. go figure which one is the dog and the maid. mother had faith in the maid to cook, but no. FAILURE.

more sex and the city in an hour. good night earthlings. <3

kent :)

yen was late, yen is late, yen is still late
grrrrrr.
class was supposed to start at 9am. lalalalala
its 10.54 am now :)
so let me seee what shall i do with you. mmm *yummy*
YEN IS STILL LATE AT HE MOMENT.

bubble gum flings

sweet surrenders

limp and floppy-ness

tender loving care

mountain high princess pampered life

which one would u choose?

indeed ive proven my other new theory

'never say never' baby :)

life had its boundaries,

sometimes we choose to cross them, sometimes we choose to hold back,

its cause we fear, we fear to see what beholds us,

we often say that being a child is the best as we have nothing to worry about,

people often make decisions for us, they dictate the way we live as a child,

im 19, its time to cross those boundaries, do things i'd never dare do in the past,

at least i can say i tried, its a sense of self satisfaction.

we dont wanna live in the shadow and be a follower all our lives,

however the fear, ive just learn a few days ago that,

there is nothing to fear accept fear itself !

loves.

jolin <3

wassup mamasan! hello. *waves* :D
i are bored. see we're in the library doing shits.
i mean well, YOU are fucking around lah.
i'm printing notes.
nice ah fuck around? :)
anyhoos, we came to uni for nuts. wtf.
i drove all the way here wey. waste life -_-"
next week you drive lah k. i hate driving on mondays wth.
you read me well sweetie.
:)
maybe you can marry ivan someday.
i want to be your maid of honour okay.
i want a vera wang dress.
can we go home now, please?
PRETTY PLEASE. i need to finish my assignment.
i'll buy you something nice from sydney?
maybe they have nice kinky sex toys for you there.
want want? :D
let's go drink teh o ais now lah.
don't wait for ivan can? he's taking forever. -_-"
hehehe. see see your wedding day, the fella make you wait at the altar.
alter or altar? HA HA i don't know. i think it's altar.
this is why i don't score well for exams.
i'm not very smart. but wait, i'm a bit smart. a bit. :D *grins*
but mamasan, i learn from you. i learn from the best.
seriously, let's go teh o ais now. okay see you in a few seconds.
loves you long time.
*heartheart*





lots and lots of yen love,
yen. :)

smooches

"aubergine. terung. egg plant. brinjal. come and catch me now" sarny.





chucchy has finally arrived safely in ireland and is jacking the comp of her irish roomie, which i choose to presume is a girl. apparently the girls and boys are separated. but knowing chucchy, it wont stop her from doing something out of the ordinary, right?? katie perry :)





had a conversation with a friend. not talking to you definitely helped. im happy where i am right now. thank you to you and the forever faithful one. :) and to you, u can do it too and u know it !!





uni. boring. enough said.





decisions. praying and hoping for the best. guide me guide me !





jo<3.

mojo:)

teardrops

u left.

its only for the best, may you succeed in life.

study hard, dont disappoint us and ur parents.

have faith and dont be a slut nor a junkie ;)

ill always have ur back be it anywhere we may be.

i hope to hear from u soon.

trust me when i say that, i WILL see u again someday.

it doesnt matter when.

cause ull always have a space in my heart.

i miss u kok chu chian !

<3333333

p/s technology never fails to reunite us :)

mariah carey- they cant take that away from me.