i surprise myself sometimes.
i thought im strong.
and filled with sick pleasure.
but apparently im wrong.
just 24 hours and u will be leaving.
arghh. HEARTS <3

lame,beyondlame :(

yay, im happy u didnt burse my bubble :)
moving on, its 1.47 on a bright saturday afternoon,
the sister is up in genting. with the 8 month old belly, makes me wonder.
i was rudely awaken by the courier man this morning, to which i couldnt be bothered to go wave at him by the window and then proceed to collect the parcel. he left a note by the door. *dont tell mummy i was lazy*

last night, went to church, rev bernard blessing held a healing encounter.
im kinda disappointed with myself that i didnt make the best outta it.
was distracted i must say.

today, im more than hurt
ive already said, i cannot suffer another setback.
uve once again killed me.

attimes,iwisheditdidnthappen :/

the weather is all gloomy and cold. it has been raining on and off the whole day. eee.

as i was lying on the bed this afternoon, thinking whilst trying to take a nap, a thought came by,

i wish that the weekend would come sooner as i kinda dread uni. -__-

but as i hope for the weekend, monday the 1st of september is drawing closer day by day,

as u leave, it saddens me.

i'll miss weekend dinners without you, miss bimbotic moments with you, i'll miss you 'directing' me in the car with your hands although it makes no sense, i'll miss mocking you and vice versa.

i think it'll be a while till i see you again but fate will reunite us someday.

but this farewell will do you a lot of good definitely :)

come back and make us proud, doctor kok.

<33333>

today uni was fine. had accounting lecture and economics tutorial.

finally concluded that my econs tutorial teacher has a fake eye. its constantly in the same position and his eye-lids doesnt blink. felt weird staring directly at him for at least 5 minutes to 'pastikan' fairuz's conclusion.

went to the library to amend mistakes in the assignment before finally passing it up at 1.15 pm. its a relieve. then someone jacked me. i wonder why -___-"

life is all about making choices,

some good and some bad,

and it can get very tiring sometimes.

honestly, im at my breaking point and im this close to giving up.

i dont know whats keeping me together at this moment.

but im thankful for it.

im not as strong as i use to be,

im willing to falter if i have to so that i dont have to make a choice.

on a random note : remember the time we stole a cone from the curveeeee ;)

and i miss college days :(

criminal minds is on :D

have a great night.

gofigure.

a very random shout out

to you : you are a slut,will always be a slut. you are going over to the uk. be good. and stop fucking around. its annoying. and if all goes well, ill see u soon, depending. pray and hope for the best <3>

to you : stupid doctor. ill never come see you when im sick except for those anti depression pills. remember WE want them not in bottles but cartons. have fun boozing in ireland. will not miss you. skype skype baby ! hearts

to you : you are my mamasan la. no one can beat u at that. enough said. sayangs u loads :)

to you : you ah. well ur bimbo enough on its own. remember, you will always be a liability. a long term one, mind you. but ill still pour my love to you. SYMPHATY that is. smoooches

to you : stop leaving your laptop around, its very annoying. although nothing has happen, it doesnt mean it will NEVER happen. *throws hugs and kisses* btw, come friday, ill let u know if ill be there. u get my drift ;)

thats all for now,that is.

<3

ontheunbeatentrack :)

i walk, i eat, i sleep, i shit, i cry, i run, i fumble, i breath, i live, i give-up, i hate, i love, i bitch, i gossip, i totally loath you, i miss, love me or hate me.

joooo <3

in this world, no one is perfect, ill never believe in saying 'never' again. after all, it fits the saying, 'never say never'. we human do the unthinkable sometimes. never underestimate yourself sometimes. have faith :)